Thursday, October 9, 2014

Movin from Memphis

Today I am particularly grateful, and that's because two years ago from today I moved home from Memphis. I am thankful that I have been home and around this long, it seems crazy that about 110 weeks ago, I thought I would only make it MAYBE 40 weeks. The time has gone by really fast and really slow, but what matters most is that the perpetual terrifying fear of dying- I no longer have. I also have been very blessed to have so many people- most of who I don't even know, pray for me.
I'm also really lucky because some of the best people I have ever talked to and am good friends with now, I have met through my blog. The expectation for this blog in the beginning was to keep all of my family and friends updated while I was going through treatment in Memphis, and I've been so blessed to have been prayed for in so many states, countries, and religions because of it.

Oh, and guess who got their port out! This girl! My doctors told me I don't need it anymore (when in April they told me I had to stop chemo but had to keep the port to be on hospice). It's crazy that I'm still alive because I had a nurse admit to me in June that in May she didn't think that I would make it a week from my April visit. So so so very blessed.

I've been thinking lately how fast time is going by. While I was in Memphis, time was still, and each minute felt like a 1/2 hour. I was miserable and depressed (dexamethasone, remember?) But I made it through! This year since August 9th, I hardly remember too much happening, I've been so busy, and time has gone by so fast, and I am so thankful for that because while I was in Memphis, I thought time would never be the same again.
I don't have too much else to say, besides thank you for the emails/comments that I still get frequently. I love to hear peoples story, where they're from and what led them to my blog, it fascinates me.

I can do hard things!

Rachel
ps
 LOOK HOW LONG MY HAIR IS!!!

Even my bald spot where the dr. shaved putting my shunt in is growing fast!
 Me getting my port out! I'm a great patient!