Tuesday, November 27, 2012


Okay so last time I said I almost had to be taken off for a week, anyways, I take a week off of chemo.
Which is fine by me (means less nausea on my part) but isn't good news. Anywho, it only made us more curious to see what the results of this Mondays blood test would be. So again it was high, 3rd week in the row. Luckily I have one more week left that I can be off until they have to drop my dose to level 2 of the chemo.

I kind of thought it would be a little break on my body since I wasn't on chemo, therefore a little holiday gift, but it definitely hasn't been. I guess there are still some drugs in my system that I'm not even taking that make me sick and give me horrible headaches, and make me feel like I'm going to pass out. So I've spent lots of time in bed recently. But on a happier note, I got my honey baked ham on Thanksgiving. It was delicious.
I think God knew what he was doing when he gave me cancer, but I don't think cancer knew what it was doing when it started attacking me.
Oh and we're going to Hawaii on December 30th, for those of you that keep asking!

 Anyways the girls, leaders, and many others in my ward did a Festival of Trees tree for me. It's very cute!

It's probably a really good thing I have this little clone of me, since I happen to have a lot of free time. And the others in my family, I just really like Jordyn.


  1. Love the picture of you and Jordan. I hope you get feeling even better and have a wonderful time in Hawaii. Hugs:-)

  2. Such a brave girl, a true inspiration. I hope you have an awesome holiday :). Keep smiling x

  3. Dear Rachel,

    I came across your blog because of Mindy, I follow her channel on Youtube and her Facebook page and she told us about you months ago, practically since the beginning of this whole new episode in your life. I´ve read all of your blog, and I´ve always had comments and things to say to tell but for some reason I never posted anything.... until today. Cancer is tough, it makes people week and tough at the same time, your body is weak but your mind, heart and faith is tougher. I've been having some hard months myself, no, I don´t have cancer, it´s just some other stuff, no health related; sometimes I feel guilty about feeling bad for myself, because maybe it´s silly, but I simply have these feelings that I try to fight so hard, I think my problems are more of a battle against myself. Something about you makes me feel... stronger? positive? better? Maybe all of that, maybe even more things. Everyday I wake up and turn my laptop and check your blog (which I have in my favorites bookmark, just one click and I'm here) to see if there´s a new entry, if there isn´t anything, I know and understand, Rachel might be busy with her family, busy having tests done or Rachel's body might say that day to her "No Rachel, today you are feeling nauseous and/or having a headache, so no blog for today"; but, when there is something new...it's going to be a better day than yesterday. Time to wrap things up in this comments! So, Rachel, the girl who can do hard things; I hope the headaches go away... especially around the holidays and of course...In Hawaii! Tell your body that no headaches and nausea are allowed in Hawaii!


  4. I haven't stopped praying for you Rachel.

  5. Hi Rachel.

    I'm an 18-year-old college student from Connecticut and I came across your blog from Mindy's youtube as well. I just can't express enough how much your faith through everything has touched me. I've struggled with my own faith these past couple of months being away from home for the first time and experiencing very new things. Your unyielding faith has put things in perspective for me. You keep reminding me that God has a plan for every one of us and I can't thank you enough.

    And on another note I'm super impressed that you've kept running through everything.. I'm a runner too and sometimes it can heal like nothing else. I wish you all the best, you seem like one of those people who just make the world better.

    You CAN do hard things.
    xo Sarah

  6. Went to Festival of Trees and saw this tree and the beautiful decorations. It was a work well done and whoever did it put a lot of work in to it, and it's so awesome that it will help kids at PCMC. Thank you for blogging and keeping us updated. Our prayers are with you daily and we are impressed with the faith you have through all of this. It surely isn't easy, but you definitely have an eye on your eternal promise. God bless you and your family, and congrats on your trip to Hawaii. Make sure you visit the pineapple farms.

  7. I hope you have a blessed christmas! Praying for you.

  8. I hope you have a wonderful time in Hawaii!! I will pray for you. My little girl, who at the time was 2 1/2 was diagnosed with cancer (rhabdomyosarcoma). She was treated at Primarys (1 year of chemo) and did 6 weeks of radiation. I understand the cancer road. You have a wonderful attitude, thanks for sharing! Have a wonderful Christmas!!

  9. Dear Rachel, My daughter came across your blog from Mindy's youtube. Our fourteen year old son was diagnosed with a DIPG last February (2012). The Lord allowed us to go to St. Jude and he is also on Crenolanib. He was just there this past week and was told that the tumor is gone. We know the Lord healed him, but also know the Lord sent us to St. Jude and allowed us to be on this trial. You will continue to be in our prayers. 2 Corinthians 5:7, "For we walk by faith and not by sight." Wendy